I wish i could hate you.I wish i could blame you for screwing up our lives!You put my life into a deepshit.You made everyone suffer along with you!Sometimes im fucking tired with all this!But you're the one brought me to life,you gave me love and shelters.For 20 years.I cant blame you at all.Just can move on everyday and hope for the best.
I dont want to be like you in future.You failed to be a father but succeed at another side of view.I want to live good in future.Giving everyone i love the best i could.Which is you,mum,bro and venice.I dont want you guys to suffer.I rather suffer alone than seeing you guys suffer along.Especially venice.Cause she will be the one spending the rest of my life with me.I promise you guys to give you the best i can.Im tired with shouting,scoldings,judging,complaining,blaming,lies and etc.
Please talk nicely to me.And stop lying to me.Stop hiding stuffs from me.I can act stupid because i love you.Im willing to bear all the burdens because I LOVE YOU.Please dont let me down no more.
I love you guys very much.
