5.42 am 25 JAN 2011
The worst day of my life.My whole life came crashing apart.I lost myself.Apart of me is dead.My heart is torn and shattered into pieces.Bleeding till my last breath.
Is this the end for the two of us?Of all the things we've been through,the happy and sweet moments,the joys and laughters.Our dreams and future.Our commitment in getting engaged this year after your graduation,Our planning for future,Our wedding,Our family in future.Is this the end?
I broke your heart.I let you down.I made you cried.
I gave you everything.I gave you my life,my soul.But in the end it seems like whatever i've given you is just nothing.I sacrifice myself for you.Given you everything i could.Trying to give you what i cant.Everything i have im giving to you.But it doesn't seems to be enough.
Im not good enough for you.Im not loving you enough like you love me.You gave me everything.Life and future.You gave me love,comfort,shelter,everything you had.I dint appreciate them.I took them for granted.I suspected you.Complaining you're not giving me enough where as im not giving you anything in return.
I've wasted your golden times.Wasted your energy for being with me.Im such a loser.A worthless piece of crap.Im not worth your love at all.Im really very sorry.
I wish i could turn back time.So i could understand you.To love you the way you really want to be loved.Im really sorry my baby.I hope you could give me a chance to change my mistakes.I had no courage to tell u to ask chances from you in real,because i felt i dont deserve it.But if i could,i really hope you are willing to give me a second chance to make things right.I dont know is that possible.The worst part is we used to hold hands,and now turning to an awkward situation.We've been couples to friend.The feeling,when i can hold your hands while walking with you but i cant.Where i can kiss you and cuddle you but i cant.This part is killing me.I just can hope for the best
I dont know when am i going to receive any messages or calls from you.If im lucky enough to receive any one of them,I'll be very happy and grateful.I dont know we are over or still in a relationship.If we're still in a relationship,i really hope you could give me one more chance to make things right.Think of our happy moments,its a wasted if we just end up like this.Why not we try to make things right one more time.
If this is the end,deeply in my heart,i hope the best for you.I will pray for you.I will let you free if that is what you really want.I will continue love you.Live in the memories between the both of us.Lied to myself to move on everyday.
Dar,if you see this,if you willing to give me a chance to prove to you im your MR.right,text me or give me a call.If you thinks its over,Please...Just text me ''OVER''.I cant withstand the pain.I dont want you to say too much.Just a simple ''OVER'' will do.Its enough to kill me.
Lastly,i still believe you with all my heart.You'll be my one and only.
Waiting for your call which is an angel to me,
Or your ''OVER'' to end.
Whatever decision you make,Im still in love with you.
Daren.
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